Dreamy diaries
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Below is a fictional story without much explanation or context. Currently its gist of some ideas that I had.
Below is a fictional story without much explanation or context. Currently its gist of some ideas that I had.
Read at your own risk.
Suggestions are welcome.
Grammar Nazis are most welcome with suggestions.
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Grammar Nazis are most welcome with suggestions.
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Life is tough these days. A plague has spread and people are missing each day.
The good thing is I am safe and sound, working, making plans for future.
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I just interviewed for a company and got selected. Felt like I made a good decision as I got unexpected hike. Things will be in my control from now on.
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first day and I was expecting someone to come and introduce me to the team or give some information about the work. I am Sitting at a place whole day , looking frantically same faces again and again.
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I am at the company looking here and there, and feeling it's been days I have seen any microcontroller at any place . Is it an embedded company?
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There is a big desk where the manager sits and I am about to go and ask him few details. His was not a cabin rather a big desk like a receptionist.
first day and I was expecting someone to come and introduce me to the team or give some information about the work. I am Sitting at a place whole day , looking frantically same faces again and again.
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I am at the company looking here and there, and feeling it's been days I have seen any microcontroller at any place . Is it an embedded company?
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There is a big desk where the manager sits and I am about to go and ask him few details. His was not a cabin rather a big desk like a receptionist.
He was discussing about some medical product with 3 people. I acknowledged everybody and took a chair to listen. It seemed interesting. More of a customer and marketing type discussion. It felt not great but I interjected and proposed some informal suggestions . Everybody listened intently as I was new. Maybe they were thinking I was daring.
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It went well and I thought that I spoke, so I will prepare a document and explain it properly. I took permission and went to my chair to prepare the idea.
I saw from my place, similar faces I saw previously in distraught looking situation. Maybe it's a small company and its pressure of work on too less people.
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I was feeling let down from the first day itself. The job was not what I sought. It was some medical company which used to take patients prognosis and send that to other experts. Later those experts sends the diagnosis.
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So I thought it's just 6,7 people and the business seems thriving. Otherwise how can they manage an office in such an expensive place. Maybe I should have bargained for my package some more.
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Well I was explaining my suggestions with prepared document to manager. Other 6 people were also there, I saw my a really tall man from my hindsight. I looked in the direction, he was probably 7 feet tall person. White guy, maybe from some Scandinavian nation with red hair. Like some character from some anime alive. He had striking looks, shapely jaw, broad shoulders, lean but strong looking built, as if commanding everyone to surrender their prides.
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It went well and I thought that I spoke, so I will prepare a document and explain it properly. I took permission and went to my chair to prepare the idea.
I saw from my place, similar faces I saw previously in distraught looking situation. Maybe it's a small company and its pressure of work on too less people.
....
I was feeling let down from the first day itself. The job was not what I sought. It was some medical company which used to take patients prognosis and send that to other experts. Later those experts sends the diagnosis.
....
So I thought it's just 6,7 people and the business seems thriving. Otherwise how can they manage an office in such an expensive place. Maybe I should have bargained for my package some more.
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Well I was explaining my suggestions with prepared document to manager. Other 6 people were also there, I saw my a really tall man from my hindsight. I looked in the direction, he was probably 7 feet tall person. White guy, maybe from some Scandinavian nation with red hair. Like some character from some anime alive. He had striking looks, shapely jaw, broad shoulders, lean but strong looking built, as if commanding everyone to surrender their prides.
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I felt envy of his foreign genes.
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He looked in our direction while walking. My manager's face seemed struck by lightning. Maybe surprised. He looked dead serious as if he was not expecting him. I tried to look properly the face of my manager , but couldn't. His gaze shifted at me and he too was staring at me, with a sinister grin as I looked away.
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That guy went to top right corner corridor, turned and si He did not said anything or gave any looks which could have given me any hint he is displeased and understand my manager's sudden expressions.
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Was that tall guy the owner? Maybe an overseas client?
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I thought this is the kind of company I want to work. Highly qualified individuals, certainly they are true businessmen type.
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Well the moment he disappeared in that alley, a girl, rather a lady came. Tall, very tall, she too was maybe not less than 6'10", beautiful like a vamp and white. But her dressing sense was really .. um .. on your face.
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She was wearing some kind of fashionable lingerie, that exposed almost everything. My exact thought was maybe she is into serious gothic culture. White people do everything with confidence, to the crazy levels, so maybe she is dead serious about her looks, otherwise on a business place , scene like these are certainly offending.
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She must be highly qualified too.
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I was feeling good actually. What a place to work. Such an open culture. I just need to give suggestions and get a fat pay cheque.
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Screw bootloaders , Linux and programming. So this is how people make money who really make money in corporate.
I am ready to leave all this bullshit. Time to enjoy culture and be a hipster.
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Well I was too much into my thoughts and distracted. I saw many people coming and going in the same direction. Probably 50 people I guess. I never saw so many people on this floor. From where they are coming.
Odd.
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My manager said let's take a break and meet them
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We went to the same corridor and in the end there was a room.
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So there were three girls very tall, fashionably skimpy dressed and that tall man. Rest were people like us.
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I came to know one of the girl was an architect. She has made world's tallest and a thinnest tower. We all were invited to go to the top.
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Yay what a creative bunch of hips I have joined.
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Now before going up I thought if it's the thinnest how can we all fit on the roof.
60 almost people on staircase. I didn't asked anything as I felt too shy asking directly.
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We started on the stairs. It was really a tough fit for two people to enter the staircase that I assumed. Very narrow stairs even for an average built person like me.
"Very very narrow", my brain said.
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I met Shanu(elder sister). What a trippy place. How come she is here. She told that they were her friends. I thought to myself ahh that has to be. Such fashionable friends can only be hers. What else. It have to fit.
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I am climbing
Climbing
Climbing
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So Iti dd(another elder sister) was also there too.
She was just behind me, telling me to go up very carefully. I could feel the height and see blackness beneath. I was too high now in that tower. I could feel the building swaying with wind. The cool breeze inside the towers was giving me chills.
I kept going on.
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Now it feels very dangerous. I am not frightened of heights (Acrophobia), but I am very concerned when I feel something bad is possible. Physics have to hold, and this architect girl must have used some kind of material and engineering techniques that will probably make this whole thing enjoying.
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Maybe this building is made to entertain people and generate revenue.
Yeah that can be its only purpose.
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I am almost at the top. I can see light from two staircase above. Let's finish this and get down as soon as possible.
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I remembered I carried iti dd somewhere on my back as she was tired. She is surprised same as me at the last step.
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That guy went to top right corner corridor, turned and si He did not said anything or gave any looks which could have given me any hint he is displeased and understand my manager's sudden expressions.
....
Was that tall guy the owner? Maybe an overseas client?
....
I thought this is the kind of company I want to work. Highly qualified individuals, certainly they are true businessmen type.
....
Well the moment he disappeared in that alley, a girl, rather a lady came. Tall, very tall, she too was maybe not less than 6'10", beautiful like a vamp and white. But her dressing sense was really .. um .. on your face.
....
She was wearing some kind of fashionable lingerie, that exposed almost everything. My exact thought was maybe she is into serious gothic culture. White people do everything with confidence, to the crazy levels, so maybe she is dead serious about her looks, otherwise on a business place , scene like these are certainly offending.
....
She must be highly qualified too.
....
I was feeling good actually. What a place to work. Such an open culture. I just need to give suggestions and get a fat pay cheque.
....
Screw bootloaders , Linux and programming. So this is how people make money who really make money in corporate.
I am ready to leave all this bullshit. Time to enjoy culture and be a hipster.
....
Well I was too much into my thoughts and distracted. I saw many people coming and going in the same direction. Probably 50 people I guess. I never saw so many people on this floor. From where they are coming.
Odd.
....
My manager said let's take a break and meet them
....
We went to the same corridor and in the end there was a room.
....
So there were three girls very tall, fashionably skimpy dressed and that tall man. Rest were people like us.
....
I came to know one of the girl was an architect. She has made world's tallest and a thinnest tower. We all were invited to go to the top.
....
Yay what a creative bunch of hips I have joined.
....
Now before going up I thought if it's the thinnest how can we all fit on the roof.
60 almost people on staircase. I didn't asked anything as I felt too shy asking directly.
....
We started on the stairs. It was really a tough fit for two people to enter the staircase that I assumed. Very narrow stairs even for an average built person like me.
"Very very narrow", my brain said.
....
I met Shanu(elder sister). What a trippy place. How come she is here. She told that they were her friends. I thought to myself ahh that has to be. Such fashionable friends can only be hers. What else. It have to fit.
....
I am climbing
Climbing
Climbing
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So Iti dd(another elder sister) was also there too.
She was just behind me, telling me to go up very carefully. I could feel the height and see blackness beneath. I was too high now in that tower. I could feel the building swaying with wind. The cool breeze inside the towers was giving me chills.
I kept going on.
....
....
Now it feels very dangerous. I am not frightened of heights (Acrophobia), but I am very concerned when I feel something bad is possible. Physics have to hold, and this architect girl must have used some kind of material and engineering techniques that will probably make this whole thing enjoying.
....
Maybe this building is made to entertain people and generate revenue.
Yeah that can be its only purpose.
.....
I am almost at the top. I can see light from two staircase above. Let's finish this and get down as soon as possible.
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I remembered I carried iti dd somewhere on my back as she was tired. She is surprised same as me at the last step.
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After last stair, there is a plank like a platform in an odd direction. The space between that last stair and the platform was very narrow and it was too odd and dangerously angled to go on roof comfortably. No safety and below was just black void to fall.
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Iti dd and me both were mortified, looking at the space we have on this thin stair and how to actually try and go up without having sweaty hands and nervousness, because that will certainly be our fall.
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Below us was nothing. If I fell, the first knock on my head will make my head sleep and I will fall freely, knocking the railings here and there.
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I was shitting bricks.
I asked iti dd. What to do?
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She didn't said anything.
Something struck me, why iti dd will be here?
And she on my back ?
The coincidences are getting weird as I try to recall the events.
I didn't talked with her properly till now? Hell, I did not even saw her properly. Whatt, And....I really can't carry dd upto this height.
I tried to remember how much time has passed since I started climbing.
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I went back a couple of steps. Tried to rub my back in walls.
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My back touched the cold walls. No one was there on my back. I was in weight of my own thoughts and Iti dd was in my head.
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I was realising some more things. I saw 50 people going in. I did not saw anyone behind me or ahead of me the whole time. How can they all adjust on this stairs without making any noise?
Also the stairs were not looking of made up of anything strong? It just felt like cheap iron on touch, lightweight kind of structural material.
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Where is my manager?
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Below us was nothing. If I fell, the first knock on my head will make my head sleep and I will fall freely, knocking the railings here and there.
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I was shitting bricks.
I asked iti dd. What to do?
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She didn't said anything.
Something struck me, why iti dd will be here?
And she on my back ?
The coincidences are getting weird as I try to recall the events.
I didn't talked with her properly till now? Hell, I did not even saw her properly. Whatt, And....I really can't carry dd upto this height.
I tried to remember how much time has passed since I started climbing.
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I went back a couple of steps. Tried to rub my back in walls.
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My back touched the cold walls. No one was there on my back. I was in weight of my own thoughts and Iti dd was in my head.
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I was realising some more things. I saw 50 people going in. I did not saw anyone behind me or ahead of me the whole time. How can they all adjust on this stairs without making any noise?
Also the stairs were not looking of made up of anything strong? It just felt like cheap iron on touch, lightweight kind of structural material.
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Where is my manager?
Where is Shanu?and why..?
What is this?
Maybe there was a lift and I am a fool.
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How can I not think all this before starting. Is this about the air?
I am near the roof and availability of fresh air is clearing up my mind.
Was I delirious the whole way, up?
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I have to give it a try to reach the rooftop. Its risky going down, suspecting some foul air, that is making me delirious.
Others were maybe laughing and enjoying, drinking, having treats somewhere.
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I tried and bent my body in very risky situation.
Nervousness was on me entirely, palms sweating, and just in the middle of my attempt I was trembling for grip.
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Omg how I made it I also don't know.
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I was on the roof.
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There were only 10 people, not 50. Maybe they are behind me. The roof was too small for 10 people. It was max 12 by 12 feet, probably at 1000 feet height.
It was hard for me to grasp how it was made. I had questions but I couldn't muster courage and ask the lady how did she build it and what is the specialty or purpose of this building. I looked around.
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One was that tall man, the two ladies and my manager and some of my colleagues.
They looked towards me. Grinning. I could not smile. I was mentally exhausted.My manager whispered something to that tall man.
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Sitting in a chair looking at the view. Wind was too strong, a gale it was.
I had to lower down myself near the floor so that I don't lose my balance.
I could see far and far. Couldn't figured if there is any building below. With watery eyes I tried to see. I see nothing other than pale clouds. Am I that high?
Looked up it was reddish sky.
Maybe Sun is at horizon, giving this tint to sky.
What I can make of it?
I started probably at 10 am just after my first meeting with manager. How can it be 5:30 pm so soon.I can't climb for that many hours.
Something is not fitting into logic anymore. I tried my best.
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One of my colleague was very daring or super stupid. Whenever the building was swaying due to wind, he tried his best to sway some more with his weight.
I was really angry at this act of him. Lots of alarms were ringing in my head.
Physics mostly
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How can I not think all this before starting. Is this about the air?
I am near the roof and availability of fresh air is clearing up my mind.
Was I delirious the whole way, up?
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I have to give it a try to reach the rooftop. Its risky going down, suspecting some foul air, that is making me delirious.
Others were maybe laughing and enjoying, drinking, having treats somewhere.
....
I tried and bent my body in very risky situation.
Nervousness was on me entirely, palms sweating, and just in the middle of my attempt I was trembling for grip.
...
Omg how I made it I also don't know.
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I was on the roof.
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There were only 10 people, not 50. Maybe they are behind me. The roof was too small for 10 people. It was max 12 by 12 feet, probably at 1000 feet height.
It was hard for me to grasp how it was made. I had questions but I couldn't muster courage and ask the lady how did she build it and what is the specialty or purpose of this building. I looked around.
....
One was that tall man, the two ladies and my manager and some of my colleagues.
They looked towards me. Grinning. I could not smile. I was mentally exhausted.My manager whispered something to that tall man.
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Sitting in a chair looking at the view. Wind was too strong, a gale it was.
I had to lower down myself near the floor so that I don't lose my balance.
I could see far and far. Couldn't figured if there is any building below. With watery eyes I tried to see. I see nothing other than pale clouds. Am I that high?
Looked up it was reddish sky.
Maybe Sun is at horizon, giving this tint to sky.
What I can make of it?
I started probably at 10 am just after my first meeting with manager. How can it be 5:30 pm so soon.I can't climb for that many hours.
Something is not fitting into logic anymore. I tried my best.
...
One of my colleague was very daring or super stupid. Whenever the building was swaying due to wind, he tried his best to sway some more with his weight.
I was really angry at this act of him. Lots of alarms were ringing in my head.
Physics mostly
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Resonance,
solid construction can't bend too much.
There was no railing on the roof.
I can slip and die.
My legs are giving me signal of constant excitement.
The girls and man were standing like nothing will happen and just chill.
My manager looks amused.
Resonance,
solid construction can't bend too much.
There was no railing on the roof.
I can slip and die.
My legs are giving me signal of constant excitement.
The girls and man were standing like nothing will happen and just chill.
My manager looks amused.
My gut never gave me a green signal.
I am sitting on the roof. People are talking.
No new person came. Shanu is nowhere to be seen, that means I was in some kind of delirium when I assumed she is here.
The wind is very strong at this height, and chilled. It is also my constant reason of fear as I was aware of so many dangers.
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Now I think for me it's done.
I will go down.
People are watching me. I smiled and said I had some important work at bank and need to hurry.
They didn't said anything.Just looked at me, half smiling.
I reached near the platform from where I crawled in. I bend and looked at stairs before I try.
No new person came. Shanu is nowhere to be seen, that means I was in some kind of delirium when I assumed she is here.
The wind is very strong at this height, and chilled. It is also my constant reason of fear as I was aware of so many dangers.
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Now I think for me it's done.
I will go down.
People are watching me. I smiled and said I had some important work at bank and need to hurry.
They didn't said anything.Just looked at me, half smiling.
I reached near the platform from where I crawled in. I bend and looked at stairs before I try.
Hell....
There were stairs but they were way too below and 3, 4 rounds of stairs were broken. Too risky it was for a sane person to even try.
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Looking back at people.
No one is here. NO ONE !!
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Looking back at people.
No one is here. NO ONE !!
What is this.?
Building is swaying. I want to hold something for safety.
Losing my perspective now.
Panic starts rising and the nervous swooping around my body began again.
That horizon looks warped now.
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I am stuck.
Building is swaying. I want to hold something for safety.
Losing my perspective now.
Panic starts rising and the nervous swooping around my body began again.
That horizon looks warped now.
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I am stuck.
I am trapped.
Whats the end of it?
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Whats the end of it?
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Life is tough these days. A plague kind of disease has spread and people are going missing every day in large numbers.
The good thing is I am safe and sound, working, making plans for future.
Am I missing too !!
Am I missing too !!
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